Tuesday, April 28, 2009

2....6....4

I sit here typing, tears streaming down the face simply because I saw a movie that has moved me so much (as I knew it would, hence the reason I put off wanting to see it) that I felt the need to spew a bit of word vomit.

I have been very fortunate in my life to have been loved, truly loved, and adored. Yet, there has only been one whom I've completely and totally returned the favor. Every day I wake and give thanks to God for letting me live another day with this man. Amongst my greatest fears is not having him next to me to hold tight, or laugh with, or eat my cooking adventures, or hold my hand and comfort me as I watch our daughter grow more and more each passing day.

Happiness doesn't begin to describe my life. Complete. Cheesy, I know, but really, it's true. I always felt a bit left. There were constant differences from me to the rest of the world. My family accepted (tolerated) me. Loving me unconditionally. I dated...and with each heartbreak (theirs and mine) I learned another lesson that brought me closer to my beloved: Self-Acceptance. Adventure. Tolerance. Patience. Faith. Creativity. Willingness. Dialogue. Laughter.

And on that fateful day six years ago. God's grace shone down on him and opened my eyes to my future. I felt it and it shook me at the core, so much so that I dared to utter the words aloud: That's the man I'm going to marry. And I did. Life, as I knew it, changed.

People say all the time that the person you should be with makes you want to be a better person. How does that person have that affect on you to begin with? Is it because we allow it to happen? It's easy to get caught up in all of the inner conversations. With him, I learned to let go and just enjoy it all. Because life by his side is a fun adventure.

We celebrate four years of marriage tomorrow. We're going to 6 Flags because my company had free tickets to get in, parking, and dinner. Inexpensive, far from extravagant, but the best thing is that I get to be with him and the best gift he ever gave me: Marisabelle.

Today, go out and hug your significant other tighter. And if you don't have a significant other, no worries, you will. You just might not be aware of that person just yet. Spread the love!

1 comment:

The Potts Family said...

Oh, this makes me want to go smother Jay in kisses and hugs....but he's in the middle of a training session with Pitney Bowes. It might be a little inappropriate. I'll save it for later.

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